Always smiling can't save you !
Read vol 1 Bungaku Shoujo to see yourself.
Or I just too lucky while have friends in secondary school, my highschool quite hard by got trouble with some gang member, but i survived throught it. Life is tough, but no point if you gave up and mask yourself with "wick" and "madly laugh".
Someday i want hear about "true story" of you, but not now.
PS: thank 4 your vote before, nocare if it just sympathy or not, but i owe you that treat. Then i say my true thinks... about you. Ofcourse, "Truth is hard to hear", i just hope you won't hate me for this.